How can one man decide the fate of so many children that are worthy of love? And I'm not only talking about the kids with special needs, "typically developing" kids are affected as well. All of it just makes me sick. To think that Constance, Jillian, Katie and Sophia will be left in those dark, scary institutions with shaved heads and no dolly's tears my heart apart and to think that Andrew, Rafi and Luke will never have the chance to play with a daddy and brother makes me want to cry. How is this fair? Why does this have to happen? None of it makes sense to me, and I don't think it ever will.
So at this moment in time I am sad, heart broken, torn, confused, upset, angry and so many other emotions. And I don't know what to do. Do I take down their pictures? Do I leave them up? Do I make a new blog? Why does this have to happen? IT'S NOT FAIR. I don't think I can bring myself to take their pictures off of this little blog of mine. I feel like I have failed them. I promised them each a family. And I didn't/couldn't keep that promise. I'm sorry Katie, Jillian, Sophia, Andrew, Luke, Rafi and Constance. I'm sorry I didn't find you a family like I promised myself I would. I'm sorry you have to stay in your horrible orphanage. I'm just sorry, none of you deserve this. I know that God has a reason for everything and he has you each safe in his arms. I love each one of you and I just hope that I will be blessed enough to meet you one day, and I will NEVER give up hope that you will be home with your own family someday. Would all of you reading this blog post pray with me that someday (hopefully soon) the ban will be lifted?
The boys (L-R, Rafi, Luke and Andrew)
The girls (L-R, Jillian, Constance, Katie, and Sophia)
